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I haven't written in about a week, because I haven't known what to write about. I thought maybe I would just write an update. I am still here in Iowa for 2 more weeks. I am really getting antsy to be home. I absolutely love summer. I love spending time with my friends, laying out, going to the lake, going to the pool, and cooking out. I have felt very out of sorts because it is already June, and I have not layed out once! I have not swam once! Thanks to Jergen's I am not completely pale, but I think I need some Vitamin D. Working nights and being in Iowa away from my friends, has led to me having a Vit D deficiency. haha.
I am still on the job hunt. I am still considering traveling or staying home. I am just trying to put it in the Lord's hands and letting him to do what is best for me. I am not very good at that. I let myself get all worked up, especially when I can't really decide what I would rather do. I guess the important thing is having a job!
I have also worked the past 4 nights. As most nurses do I work 12.5 hour shifts, which means we only work 3-4 days a week. Usually your schedule works so you work 2 days in a row with some time in between. So, working 4 days in a row exhausts me. I get very emotional when I am tired, so me being this tired has led to a lot of tears over the future. I am just nervous. Hopefully I will get a good night sleep tonight and have a new prospective in the morning.
Another interesting thing I did during my four night stint, was I got the opportunity to help the emergency room nurse in the ER. I have never thought about doing ER nursing, but it was really kind of nice. You basically help the patient and admit them or send them home. It is kind of nice to have them for a short period of time and then pass them off. It is constantly different, which keeps you interested. Hmmm... have I found something else I'm interested in? Nope, I don't think I would want to do it full time. So, that is pretty much all that is going on with me! To all my friends and family I can't wait to see you soon!

On another note, thanks to all those people who have let me know they are reading. It has really kept me going to know that someone out there finds it interesting. Please ignore any misspelling or typos. My mom has made it her job to point out all my errors! (thanks, mom!) My problem is not spelling words wrong (spell check is great), but having wrong words in the wrong place. I for some reason have an issue with there and their. I promise I do know the difference, but sometimes I just get typing too fast. When I check it over before I post, I still miss things because I know what I was trying to say, so I think I read it in my head correctly even when it is still written wrong. I hope I don't offend any thing with my grammatical missteps. If so you are reading the wrong blog. If you see errors just keep in mind, I do know what is correct it just may not come out in my typing. (Does this disclaimer make you feel better mom?) So, if you enjoy reading please leave me comments, I love to read them, and join as a follower!

Frustration!

I cannot decide what I want to do with my life. I decided to become a nurse for many reasons. I love taking care of people. I love comforting people when they are going through a hard time in their lives. I even love helping a person through their death, I know that sounds weird, but there is a great blessing in holding a persons hand and telling them not to be afraid and that it is OK to go. One of the greatest things about nursing is job stability and availability. I loved the fact that there were so many opportunities to do so many different things. I also thought that nursing was an economy resistant field. After all, there are always sick people. Boy was I WRONG!
The hospitals control our industry, and what controls the hospitals? You guessed it, just like any other business, $Money$! Well I never thought it would get like this. I have enjoyed being in Jefferson, but as I am sure many of you have guessed, it is not my first choice in places to travel. When I first started to travel, you could really pick where you wanted to go. Now unfortunately you can pick from alot fewer choices. Hospitals do not want to pay for travel nurses, because as you can guess we are there most expensive staff members. It seems like now, they are going with less staff before hiring a traveler.
It has been interesting at home too. When I graduated nursing school, 2 years ago, a new graduate could get a job in any type of nursing they wanted. I had 2 offers to go to an OR. I had 4 job offers total. Now you get on the websites to the hospitals, and there are very few listings for nursing job opportunities. The ones that are posted all specify that they want a nurse who has experience in that field. I have been told that the people that are graduating from nursing school right now cannot find jobs at all. Can you imagine? You start school 2-4 years ago, and make a decision to go into a career where job availability and stability is the best of any other career you could go into. Then 2 years later you can't get a job at all!!! I am frustrated for myself, but that is just devastating for them.
So, I am at this crossroad. I would like to keep traveling, but I do not want to continue to have to go to places that I don't want to go to. There is a part of me that wants to go home, but I have always said I would go to the OR when I got done traveling, and right now that is just impossible. There are a few jobs out there at home, but they may not be the most exciting. So, the question is, Keep traveling to places that aren't so exciting, or go home to a job that isn't my dream job? What do you think?
P.S. I have decided that no matter what I do, even if I go home. I am going to have some great adventures. I am going to find fun and interesting things to do. I will quit ignoring the things to do around me, and enjoy Alabama. I have enjoyed doing random things to keep me busy. I should continue to do those things even if I am in a community where I have friends and family to hang out with.